Joelle’s magics.
I dont know if I can call you baby again, because Im your baby, but baby dont you worry, the TRAMWAY B dont go to any Airport. I live in Pessac. Near the Tram B « Chataigneraie ». And even if I take the Tram A it’s either to go to Police Station or to Bowling or the CHU Library to read about Autism and Asperger Syndrom, the Library « Sciences du Vivant ». Im intense but im not « fucked up ». Im not gonna destroy my chances and this BEAUTY by going to Tunisia or Turkey or even to Germany without SAYING IT first.
I told mom Im not coming to Morocco this Summer. And she said WAIT FOR JOELLE SHE PROBABLY SAVED YOU.
Here is the plan : We get legally married with the presence of US government and your friends, all the friends you like, we put our SOLID RINGS, and we go home to settle AND THEN next year we go PICK UP MOM and we bring her HOME. The only thing that will never change no matter what is that I want a ROOM for MOM ://
She never asks me for anything :// She even insisted so I WAIT at least until september before making any « stupid move ».
Im leaving my CROUS room today and I wanna THANK STEPHANIE the janitor of the Résidence Condorcet. She is great. She also reminds me that Laure Palhol helped me even if she was a simple worker, and I acknowledge it and I recognized it and I helped her kids, I wasnt in love with her but we were « good sex friends ».
And Probably that Joelle is gonna my first and last real relationship, plus I have never been married :// And I have never been engaged or committed to this LEVEL.
I went to the Connemara Irish Pub because I really wanted Calamars and Guinness AND because there is a worker there, I dont know if she is american or irish or african or australian, she gave me Calamars like 2 months ago and she told me « She was waiting for security clearance but now she IS ALL YOURS ». I got dizzy. All Mine ? Me ? Getting married with an American Officer with a fit ass ? Damn. Life is incredible.
Mary Elisabeth was never my « real girlfriend », she was a « friend ». And I think she never understood what I am. I mean she was nice but nothing very special, I wasnt dreaming about her every day, but I enjoyed her compagnie, like I enjoyed talking with Nathalie. And probably that Joelle is younger than Nathalie and Mary Elisabeth.
And if I forget to thank all the people, I will do it later.
Once we have our rings, of course I will call my father to say « You know what dad, I didnt finish my PhD but I married an American Officer, can you belive that ? And we are gonna write BOOKS together ».
Stéphanie said « can you give us some time to thank you ? ». I said « no problem, we want our MONEY and NEVER try to approach us / influence us / hit on us / smear on us we are HAPPY in our intensity ». Im not gonna talk about « sons or daughters » before we sleep in the same bed ://
And Joelle, let’s say that last week was about our « first fights ». I feel ashamed about all what I could have said :// I was in a total panic :// Im ready to be a Father if you are the Mother, and I dont wanna know about your past unless you TELL ME.
Anyways, I have to finish cleaning the room.
Then I have to go pick up some books about American History.
And I have to borrow Henri Poincaré « La Science et l’Hypothèse ».
And I have to take some English Intense Advanced Courses for July-August.
And I dont care about your « degrees ». We will study together and I LOVE IT. I mean I have no American Degree. And we can do a PHD Together. And Joelle, do you realize all the Powers you have ? I dont know if it’s you or the DGSI/DGSE or the CIA/NSA/DIA, but I have messages and « email objects » as they say and COVCOMS ALL DAY ALL NIGHT.
Sometimes I can even hear your voice ://
So baby can you cool down a bit and calm down a bit ? I dont want your health to be perturbated because we are gonna have new babies. Some people said you studied Art and Literature, some people said you studied Law and Politics, some people said you went to some « Military Academy », and who knows, va savoir, I say you studied Mounir Zakriti and that’s ENORMOUS. I mean I never finished my degrees in Mathematics or Computer Sciences, I never finished Engineering School, I never published a book, I never finished my PhD, I didnt manage to publish a real article (well maybe this summer I will try and publish an article about social justice, but I prefer to focus on my book).
Enfin ! No worries, no anxiety, no imposteur syndrom, no doubts, no rumors, you choosed me and I choosed you, and we are one of the most famous couples in Bordeaux and Paris.
Because of 1001 reasons and because I can COUNT ON YOU. I mean I can get mad or crazy but at the end, in Midnight I start having heart palpitation and at 7 am I start wondering why you are not in my arms. And again, SLEEP is the most important thing for health, and I know that I can get SLEEP next to you because you are not gonna poison me or stab me. And I KNOW you are gonna help me take care of my mother, and I know I can have babies with you and become family.
If you already have children, I will never ask you any stupid questions or silly « choices ». Im ready to do what it takes to be a good father.
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