Joellas Magic. An esquisse on love. Faith and the meaning of the word « commitment ».

« My love, Im never gonna finish 4 books in 6 months. And Im not gonna finish our book in 6 month. I dont need time « to think », I need time to put some logic and meaning into the words, and into the agencement of the words.
But im fine, moving to Pessac, coming to Paris again in July. Im not christian, not muslim, not jewish, just a free thinker, as always, as usual, nothing has change, nothing will change EVER. I just need to compose and collect my brain, my emotions, my feelings, and to put word on the Ineffable. Let me remind you again how Incredible and Intense you are, and let me call you my Absolute Générale and salute you, and kiss your sacred hands. I want to write some form of Méditations, some Existential Méditations, starting from Kierkegaard and the leap of faith.

Here is a meditation on Kierkegaard. Love is also about faith. And it can bring hope (…). It can be considered as a monument « leap of faith ». An existential « giving ».
Here is an excerpt of the « love raisonnement ». We all know that love is about « chemistry ». Let’s explore now the existential aspect of a peculiar experience, à la lumière de Kierkegaard.

It’s start like this : If I dont marry her, my existential equation wont be solved, and I feel like im gonna become a priest (…). When I heard that she was sucking dicks, I felt like my universe was physically collapsing. And that was the existential experience of the « psychological experience of chemistry ».

And then : Words start to be difficult to find. So it become a dolorous struggle. Et un périple. Because you start considering every possible and plausible hypothesis.
(…)

Well now I have to finish this meditation. Maybe tomorrow. When my consciousness will be more « fluid and consistent ».